i dont like dentists and i have a deep-seated fear/phobia of my teeth falling out and or falling apart. i had to go to the dentist earlier this month because my jaw began swelling and it was painful and finally it locked up on me and i couldnt eat anything, not good when you weigh only 98lbs. so as i said i went to the dentist (scary).

he took x-rays and poked around and decided my wisdom teeth needed to come out…all of them. he gave me four prescriptions (vicodin, ibiprophin, antibiotic, mouth rinse) and a recommendation to a surgical place. i take the antibiotic and the ibiprophin and i can eat again, go me. didnt take the vicodin though i did fill the script for it.

so i call the surgical place and make an appointment to get my teeths pulled on the 21st, four days before christmas…sounds like fun right. so i go in and fill out the paperwork and they take me into the room. they put the needle in my arm so they can put me to sleep and then make me sign the paper saying they can put me to sleep….something seems wrong with that. i can taste the medication at the back of my throat and it feels like i cant breathe, that is the last thing i remember before i fall asleep. then i wake up and begin to hyperventalate because i remember not being able to breath. i think i scared the nurse…

so four of my teeth were ripped out, more antibiotics more vicodin. as a side note walgreens is a lot faster at filling scripts then walmart. so the swelling was extremely bad and the pain was intense. i did take the vicodin for the first two days and then stopped, i have like two bottles of the shit now. my jaw locked back up and i couldnt eat again….awesome.

so on to the fear of my teeth falling out. apparently either they knocked my top back mouler during the surgery or my tooth became brittle from the surgery and broke apart because the back third of it is broken off. this has caused the filling in that tooth to be fully exposed. now im worried about my tooth breaking more and the filling getting knocked loose and falling out but i cant go back to the dentist yet because my jaw is locked again and my mouth is still to sore and tender. the dentist wouldnt be able to do anything yet….suck. i was right to be afraid, dentist cause pain.

so now im just trying to keep my weight up and the pain manageable and praying that nothing else goes wrong until im better again. christmas morning i got to have pancakes and home made maple syrup because i didnt have to chew it.

its kinda lonely here. i havent found anyone i would consider friend material so i dont talk to anyone outside of work. there is one guy in electronics who has shown interest but it would seem he wants more than friendship and the idea of strictly platonic doesnt interest him much so i dont talk to him either. it makes for a very quiet life. i miss new mexico……but i love being away from my family and living with tammy.